i'm whiny.

i think i have to repark my car. worst of all, i have to wake up ridiculously early and work a 12 hour day.

so it is december and the drama in my personal life hasn't seemed to end...however, there seems to be a divergence in that the drama is occurring nearby.........meaning, to people close to me, but i'm somehow not as involved, which is a really good thing.

so that means i'm doing something right. right?

i dunno.

the little boy is my bestfriend's 5 year old nephew caleb. i swear, he is the love of my life. tragically, he suffers from asperger's autism. he is also the most brilliant kid i have ever met. and he has these amazing blue eyes, and you can see him disappear into the world of his mind. he's beautiful. i love him.

the highlight of my day today: drawing in starbucks and giving my fish cartoon away to a bundled up little girl. she was a bit whiny because she was hungry, and her and her sister had to wait reluctantly for their mom to pick them up from, i'm guessing, being with the nannies. i think she was happy about the fish cartoon, but she was a bit pouty so i'm unsure. ahhh..kids are so cute. (when they're not yours, i've learned.)

i'm anxious. i don't want to work. i'm also anxious because there is a lot going on in with every aspect of my life, work, business, personal, family...EVERYTHING. the holidays....new year's..ack!! ACK!! i wish i could just skip the rest of december and all of january and get to february already. chinese new year is always a nice time.

year of the dog? yeah, year of the dog is next.

must get ready for bed. ciao.